Thursday 12 October 2017

Anxiety & Depression

What is anxiety and depression?
I'm going to be sharing with you my personal experiences and how it can make me feel...

- Anxiety keeps me up all night worrying about something that really 'doesn't matter'.
- Anxiety is when I think I'm finally getting some sleep but I end up getting up in the early hours of morning feeling sick and worried. It's like I can never fully relax because I'm just so consumed by worrying about every little thing.
- Anxiety is going out on my own and thinking I'm going to end up embarrassing myself somehow and that everyone is looking at me and judging me.
- Anxiety is trying to speak to someone and my words not coming out how I planned and then I can feel myself going red and hot and my heart starts to beat faster. Then after I will keep replaying the conversation over in my head, thinking about how I could of said/done things differently. When in reality the conversation was absolutely fine.
- Anxiety is leaving the house with butterflies in my tummy and my heart pounding out of my chest worrying about the day.
- Anxiety is cancelling plans or making excuses for no good reason. Then after feeling terrible because I know I would of probably have had a good time.
- Anxiety is feeling like theres no one else in the world you can relate to.

- Depression is a big dark cloud that follows me around not wanting me to be happy.
- Depression gets me wondering 'what is the point?'
- Depression is wanting to go out and accomplish things but it's like you're being held back.
- Depression makes me wonder if I will always feel like this?
- Depression is people thinking I'm 'lazy' but of course they don't/can't understand. 
- Depression is talking to someone and just having them tell you to 'cheer up' or 'smile'. Because yes you choose to be a miserable bitch every day.
- Depression is loving and appreciating your life but some how you're not happy and you can't seem to change that easily. 
- Depression can make me cry myself to sleep.

These are just some of the first thoughts that pop into my head as I'm thinking about anxiety and depression. I want to let everyone know that reads this that maybe can relate; that life does get better and you WILL get through this. You'll have good days and then some bad days but you'll be ok. There is support out there and I highly recommend you talk to someone. I will leave some links below for numbers that are available...

Anxiety UK
Contact number; 08444 775 774 (Monday-Friday (9:30am-5:30pm)

Depression Alliance

Contact number; 116 123 (24 hour)

Thanks for taking the time to read;
- AmberBentleyy'xo

No comments:

Post a Comment